The Last Lick..

You're pretty much hated by two guys now.. lol..

`Balls~

Exams

"Aiy yai yai....."

Nothing Gets Worse Than This

My whole life is Emo-ing..

My phone cant switch on..
- It just CANT..
- I cant text, call nor receive any sort of shit.

My internet keeps dying..
- Cant log into Msn.
- Connection dies every 2 Minutes.
- My internet memory is dead.

My leg is swollen for no reason..
- I really dont know why.

My house phone cant dial out..
- Number pads are dead.

My air con's busted..
-Well atleast it blows hot air.

I've been having Insomnia for the past few days..
- As hard as I try I cant fucking sleep.
- I roll in bed like im stuffed in a barrel.

I accidently sprayed WD-40 in to my eye..
- Yes, its a type of oil.
- My contact lenses are busted.
- It stings so bad like when I was cutting chilli padi and had to dig my nose.

My shadow makes me feel fat..
- I dont even know why that bothers me.

My cat scratched me today..
- It never does! the bladdy thing emo as well I guess.

I & Nic ate bad Magee Goreng 2 days ago..
- It gave us liquid shit & tummy pains for hours.

I was charity donor..
- I fed approximately 20 over mosquitoes..
- I set up a buffet line for them as I fell asleep on my living room floor.

I'm sex deprived..
- No woman.
- My hand rejected me.

I feel gay-er everyday..
- I'm falling for Ronald Mcdonalds.
- I'm starting to not mind pop music.

My family is on holiday without me..
- Im alone at home.
- I couldnt go cause I have school.
- They're all over malaysia in a 5 day trip sending me mms's with captions saying,

"Haaa- haaaa, Dim-sum in pennnanng!."
"Lookie! a turtle!."
"I Bet your studies don't have scuba diving in it!"

My hair's gone curly..
- and I aint getting an afro.

and before I forget, My exams are this saturday....

- Time to study till my balls shrivel..

So yea, in MY life..

Nothing gets any worse than this..

`Josh~

Bu - hull- shit!!

Step Outside and Smell the Fuckin Air.

*sniff* *sniff*

Yeaa, if you just did what I did...
You know it sucks too, absolutely reeking with a smell of stupidity.
It takes some time for a person to realise how stupid they been for way too long.

For instance, I used to hate smokers & dislike them so much, I used to judge those assholes by the habit they picked up.
Well, now I'm an asshole too..

But now I've noticed that smokers probably have as much, or probably even more attributes than of non-smokers.

-I'm friends with a state goldmedalist runner, who smokes.
-I know a pastor, the most religious of christians, who smokes.
-One of my nicest, most caring of my friends, smoke.
-A lung cancer support group leader, who smokes.
-A state rugby captain of the Cobra Association, who smokes.

I'm not saying that I have attributes as those people.
But I've realised that judging them and disliking them by their habit is just off minded and stupid.
Most smokers have much more then you think.
Dont think that just because YOU dont smoke, it gives you the right to label and curse those who do.
I'm not saying this cause I smoke, but I only realised when
I took my never-ending.. first cigarette...
So people, think twice before slamming your hammer of judgement.
a "Bad Person" can do much more harm and acts of insanity than just smoking.

The next I've noticed are the things you do out of love.
Alot of people have spent hours waiting, watching over, thinking continuesly about girls/guys that they've fell in love with or loved once before. Only to break up or get rejected feeling suffocated under words of sorrow.
"Why this?."
"Why that?."
"I hate you."
"It's not the same."
Getting rejected cause she just can't love the person you are.
I just noticed that I wasted almost 8 months of my life with a person that I've probably never really matched perfectly with.
and I've also noticed that I really shouldnt feel disheartened from her actions.
I know love hurts when you do not obtain the person you think you need.
But I guess there's much more in life you should look up to.
Friends, reading, music, hobbies.
One more thing is how someone tries to protect, care and love another, when the other person just does NOT need it.
You'll end up hearing,
"Dont la listen to this kind of music it's brain damaging."
"Sleep more, you need it."
"Dont let others bully you, don't do wat they tell you too"
"Dont over stress, study little by little, dont cramp it in."

Well, I dont fucking need to hear that.
I know you love that person, but if that person just doesnt give a fuck about you or cant be in love with you no matter how much he/she tries, it's just stupid to get emo and live your life like it doesnt matter.
Please, take a breather & learn to let go. Find someone who actually cares about you, thickhead dimwitt. Will anyone agree with me?
Dont tell me, "Oh, people cant help but to fall in love."
Fuck off with that sentence.
Here's my respect to those who can brush it off their shoulders.
I'm learning too.. it aint easy..

Think about wat I said, It took me awhile..
How long will it take for you?.

`Josh~