Why Wouldn't The Basics Apply..

I WISH I WERE LIKE EVERYONE ELSE..

I WISH I WAS TYPICAL..
I JUST WANT TO BE NORMAL..

I JUST DONT WANT TO RESIST..

I JUST WANT TO DO WHAT I WANT TO..

FUCK THIS..

FUCK MY CONSCIENCE..

FUCK THE WAY I AM.

I Can't & I'm Sorry.

I was SLEEPING & you were INSANE..

You had to take this photo,

You had to make me grumpy.

but still,

You had to make me smile,

You tried to comfort me,

You made me laugh,

You only cared so much,

and

You put me back to sleep.

What's wrong with you..

[or what's wrong with me..]

I don't think you deserve this yet

[Just not when I'm like this]

It's pointless

[but it's not my loss]

My time will come

[and I just need you to understand]

No matter how perfect you are,

Beauty does not blind my emotions.

Charm cannot erase my fears.

and Personality cannot hide my phobia.

I can only fix myself,

and only God & time can be my guide.

`Josh~

I Rule The Grill..

To Rebecca J Dcruz / Saman Queen,

Happy Birthday my dear.. x)

I don't owe you no shit for a gift..

&

You'll have to admit after today..
I am the BBQ king..

I know this ain't at your house,

but I couldnt find anything else to show me doing it. hahaaa..

and btw, hmm, stop worrying about it alright? You're an amazing person.

UNDENIABLY true.. =)

`Josh~

Jam Packed

Hey Everyone, I'm home for a week.

I was kinda lucky that I managed to arange my "off days".

but still, Im too busy to go into to details right now.

cause As you all know

All my fellow Cina's are in

CNY Fever..

[Even me]

Well anyway,

Here's a lil of wat I've been doing..

[I'll scrounge the details later when im free]

My Name.. duh.

Westin Langkawi Resort & Spa

The Place I work in..

A section I work in, stupid buffet line..

("Hello Sir, would you like to try this.. bla bla bla..") -.-

Another section I work in..

(Westin's on the sea, "float" thingy)

which looks more like a jeti which I dont understand why they call it a float because it's on bars damn it.

Well anyway, here's a lil Something I did.

and Yes, I was a Baker..

Lame as it sounds, It's wonderful. x)

More.. loaves..

and to share my agony, the bakery's bladdy hot..

Oh, I also did pastries..

It's boring, but it drastically increases ya experience.

My house over there, just the Hall.

It is very comfy cause my housemates & I really cleaned the place up.

Andrew, Vincent, KarKuan, E-Wen, EngTun, Wan, YeePing.

A very interesting, fun batch of friends I have..

[Kinda miss them already]

Well, to conclude, things are simple over there but don't misjudge on this.

The simple that I potray is fantastic..

It's so relaxed and fun especially with my housemates.

work buddies that are insane, nice & supportive people.

& lastly the peaceful environment.

I think, I'd miss that dumb island if I had to leave for good. x)

So yeah,

while im there...

I think I'll take it easy & let loose a lil.

I don't always spend 3 months on an island. x)

I guess it's much easier than I thought it would be..

Will update better as soon as I'm free alright?.

My love and care to all,

`Joshua~

Damn!

IM BORED, I WANNA BLOG, I FINALLY CAN BLOG, I HAVE INTERNET.

BUT...

I DONT HAVE A PROGRAMME TO UPLOAD MY PICTURES!

In Langkawi for me:

A lil Dull
Relaxing
Fun
CHEAP food
Good life
Nice people
Great training place
Fantastic hotel
Fun job
Baking baking baking
Constant calls
Clean house to live
Funky housemates
My eating habits fluctuate
Motorbike
Pictures
Beaches
Heaven..

but still, a part of me really wants to go home..
Chinese New Year is a good possibility.. maybe..

Sometimes I do wonder if my life is controlled by god's will or does he watch that steps I take
every step that I undergo, or every step that I HAVE to take.
each second that ticks nearing me to my pathetic death..
well, I'm yet to find out..
Dont get me wrong, Im a strong catholic believer & maybe even stronger now.


-Stupid Unlucky Life Easing Bastard-

Thanks Alot Ya'll

Industrial Training, Here I come..

Gonna be away guys, Langkawi isn't near. x)

Take care of each other alright.

I will think of you all.

I'll update as soon as I can.

A huge thank you for all who came to see me

before the day I was about to leave..

Jay, Jin, Sam & Candice, Jack, Wey Liam,

Desmond, James, Jac, Rebecca, Alex, Kevin,

Gabrielle, Stella, Tau Foo xD, Hui Ling, Kah Mun & Trish.

You know I Love you guys..

A few Sweethearts That Gave me Room to Think,

and Support to keep me going.

Jin

Jay

Samuel Chew

Candice Lee

You 4 Dont know how greatful I am. =)

Gonnaa misss U all..

(Start a countdown of 70 days.)

Tata~

`Joshes~

My Last Day

Hey you all, its my last day before my Industrial training.. It's 3 months.
so, wish me luck, I think im going to die there.. I have this feeling.
seriously..

My First View of 2009

Happy New Year Folks,

It's 2009

but to me..

I don't really believe it.

Why [?]

Because.....

1) I'll have to write my dates with a "2009", which needs getting use to. Again.

2) 2008 felt so sooo short, it was only a snap of time for me.

3) 2008 is too hard to let go, and it had too many wonderful memories.

4) I dont want to admit that my 18th year of life is busted so quickly.

5) Im getting old..

So yea, and to save myself from agony, I try to think positively. Try...

Well anyway, my new years was in The Curve, as always..

I went with some of my close-to-heart friends.

Sam, Candice & Evon.

Let's just say,

that I had a very "peaceful" New Years. x)

Here's how it went....

Sam drove us there, and we reached around..

hmm, 6.56pm? I think..

We saw these funky shades & tried for the heck of it.

Evon came later around 8.

And since that woman came late,

Sam went on a search for his room shelf in Ikea.

As you can see, I was paparazzi-ed. x)

I look kiddish.

[I really didnt know]

In the end Sam managed to get his shelf.

Simple thing, but darn useful in many ways.

bla bla bla,

and They live happily ever after, The End.

[Now, get your minds back to The Curve]

[From left: Samuel, Candice,Evon]

We tried looknig for a place to eat after that.

We intended to go to Tony Roma's or TGI Friday's.

But as you can see,

We offshot to an Italian restaurant.

I dont think our tummys could stand a 1 - 2 hour waiting list.

We were rather hungry,

and kinda random too.

haha..

Out came the cameras..

and so began the,

*FLASHY MOMENTS*

IF YOU CAN NOTICE,

THAT WAS THE BIGGEST FUCKING ASHTRAY I'VE EVER SEEN IN MY LIFE..

[I'm jakun-ing, I'm so sorry] x)

Evon Darling..

Haha, my cute random Bestie.

Love her to bits.

She's cute,

lovable,

cuddly,

perky,

funny,

adorable,

horny,

smiley,

outgong

&

stupid.

[Makes you 'aawh' doesnt it?] =D

And here's my..

Bestfriend's girlfriend.

my.. EX..

Let's just say,

she means alot to me

&

And she's lucky to have a good man to take care of her.

I'm happy and im proud of it.

Sigh.. =)

Time flies unimaginably fast..

Well anyway,

FOOOOD!

The most homemade looking pizza that I've ever indulged.

It was really good to me,

It's something different for a change.

! Heineken !

Now these babies really complimented the meal..

amazing..

Daivola Pizza 15":

Pepperoni, Cheese, Chilli Flakes, Tomato.

Cheezy Dripping..

Mouth watering..

Perfect baking..

most happening..

something..
thinga-majiging..

[I'm so out of ideas] xD

So, enough about food.

I'll move on to....

er...

Hmm.. I...

Yea, this is...

I dont know wat the hell is this photo doing here..

Bladdy panda..

Anyway,
MacDonald's was Abused..

Too many People running around..

somehow McDonald's became

-Mc Onalds-

11.40pm

Yup, New Years was around the corner.

and we bummed the highest floor of

Cineleisure.

Like dumbasses waiting for fireworks. x)

We avoided the Crowd downstairs just to have a better view of the fireworks..

It was too jam-pack anyway.

LOOK AT THEM!

haha, ant-looking people..

The clock kept ticking and it was almost time,
but still, the cameras kept going.

-Itchy Fingered Girls-

Sweaty Moment.

Peek-a-boo, I see you.

The couple of the night.

& now..

the moment that thousands have anticipated for..

FIREWORKS!~

[Just some simple shots I managed to snap]

Lovely aint it? =)

It was actually quite long for a firework presentation..

This was after the hu-ha,

Though we were sweaty, sticky..

I dare say it was a really good experience.

lol, movie time..

BEDTIME STORIES

Good show btw, watch it.. It's rather cute & funny if that' s your kinda movie.

4.30am, and.. Yup, We headed home. Sam's place to be exact.

We whack'd some really AMAZING Burgers which he recommended.

[ooh yea, it was really.. good]

and..........
What is a meal without alcohol? x)
This is the best wine that I have ever taken in my life.
at a cost of RM100, it was worth every penny.
Thanks Sam, it was nice of you to get it,
a great purchase & a fantastic choice.

[After The Wine]

We crashed, mati, died on the bed.

Not forgetting a few drunkerd laughs, a shitload of farts

& a moment to strenghten our friendship.. =)

Damn you Evon, We were SLEEPING!

marking your freaking territory on our feet..

you.. you.. bladdy dog.. you..

x)

So anyway, that concludes my lovely lil celebration, simple, but meaningful. =)

I had a really amazing time with my friends, and I hope they did too.

What a way to start my new year..

Here's my wish to all, for a..

- Happy New Year, 2009 -

I love you all & always will..

- Joshes -